Misae

( Thank You )

Christmas with my family was better than expected, although nobody knows where my father is great. It was so good to see my family, everyone always acts so proud when they hear about how well I'm doing in school. They don't all know the truth though, I wonder what they'd say if they did. Shonka and I are driving down to Norman today. He seems to finally be accepting my powers. I told him about the spell, he laughed and laughed. And then lectured me on being more careful. He got me the most wonderful book for Christmas. It's nice to be close to him again.

Also, we have snow here. I come home to get away from the snow and now it's following me.

I'm fairly certain whoever wrote the exam schedule hates me. Geography and Latin on the same day?

I don't think I'm sleeping tonight.

Today's exams went really well though. Higher Math is always intimidating, but it didn't seem too bad this time. I still have no idea what I was supposed to do with the third question, I can't really find anything about it in my notes. Runic Studies went well, but I expected it to as long as there was adequate lighting.

The rest of the week shouldn't be too rough, providing I get through tomorrow.

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I really thought I had come quite far with my incantations and spellwork. Tonight didn't go exactly as I planned though, it's hard with curfew being so much earlier. But astronomically everything was perfectly aligned tonight, I couldn't waste the opportunity. So I wasn't really sure why it didn't do anything other than create a big puff of smoke.

But now that I'm back inside and can actually see, I think I misread a line in my incantation, and if that's the case... Well it'll be interesting to see what happens.
I wish I hadn't rushed it though, it would have been nice to try out some of the other abilities.

Also whatever that smoke was, I think I'm allergic to it. I need to try to figure out which ingredient that is so I know to sit back when I use it next.
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This place is depressing and the new restrictions are suffocating. I actually think I'm looking forward to going home over break.

I had been enjoying Malibu, but now we can't leave the hotel.

And with the news that just broke... Maybe I should have gone home.

I wish they had been honest with us though, the quarantine raised a lot of concern since it wasn't explained. Not that knowing has been any better.

I don't understand why. I mean, isn't the treaty a good thing? What happens to school if it doesn't get renewed? I don't want to have to go to Pawhuska High. I never liked those kids. I know the feud has gone on forever, even with the treaty in place, but before the treaty, wasn't it all out war? I can't see why anyone would want that.


...and why is water coming in through the bottom of the door?

Yay Mathey! You guys are awesome. I'm so glad at least one team I cheer for is doing well. Oklahoma football is a wreck this year I'm kind of heartbroken.

Does anyone know if any of the places in town are hiring? I want a job. Because my family can't afford socks. Seriously. Socks are $10, why can't I have socks? Couldn't he spare a day of drinking so that my socks don't have holes in them? No? Alright then.

I had a great weekend. My brother surprised me by coming into town, the first time he's ever visited me here. The fair was fun, although it was lacking some of the better rides, but I suppose they aren't easy to ship to Greenland, even with the use of magic... I still miss funnel cake. I was so surprised he came to see me, but it was great, the Ferris Wheel was amazing, it had such a pretty view, I know he liked it.

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I never tell my family about Founder's Weekend. And they never come. That's how it is. They leave me in peace here so that I can forget about what it's like at home and they don't have to think about the fact that I spend my days reading runes and toying with blood and candlelight. You'd think they'd be more understanding, what I do isn't that far off from what our ancestors would have... I think. It doesn't matter though, that way was lost long ago...

I was so confused when I got the text from Shonka asking me to head into the town. I thought he was mad at me... We haven't really been close since I left for school. I didn't really know what to think and I hope I didn't seem to short with him. I appreciate that he came, that he cares...

Shonka came because he heard about what happened to Julian. He thinks I should go home, but I can't go back there. He told me I could stay with him, in Norman, away from Dad but.. I like what I do. I don't want to give it up, I want to be able to do everything I'm capable of, even if I can't try all of it. Just to know it, to know I can do the most incredible things...

I tried to reason with Shonka, that at schools all around the world students die, kids get murdered. It doesn't make it okay, but it doesn't mean I have to run home and hide. I'm just as likely to die here as I am in Pawhuska. In the end he told me it was my choice, because we both know Mom and Dad aren't going to make me come home, not now that they know what I'm capable of. Everyone just kind of stares at me when I go back now. I like it here. Everyone else is like me... although they still stare a lot...
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So everyone else enjoyed the fair, right? It seemed like everyone was having fun it was nice to see everyone so happy despite what happened.

My sympathies to those who lost someone.

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I can't pretend I liked Julian. He wasn't really a good person and he would have ended up dead young anyhow with his habits. And I feel terrible because I don't feel badly about his death. It was a violent death, unnecessary and very sad. And I simply don't care.

Sometimes I worry I'm becoming too distant, that soon I won't care about others at all, and what becomes of me then? Do I end up in solitude, dabbling in the darkest corners of magic?

I didn't know Jason. His sister is quiet, respectable though. I can't imagine doing that to your roommate...

...I'm going to miss Bridget.. and her rabbit. But Bella's sweet, I've always felt comfortable around her.

And two Faie's for Head Boy and Head Girl. I don't see this ending well.
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I suppose congratulations are in order as well.

It's been an odd week.

The Prime Minister dies and you're all more concerned with what some girl wrote about you? Honestly, that's just...

I have to admit I've never really followed magical politics, or any politics really... It's kind of shocking though, suicide seems so odd for a public official like that. Does anyone know anything else about that Ajibade guy? And his missing warlock friend? That's kind of weird, and why is it always a warlock? He sounds like a good choice.

Well this is embarrassing.

The only thing I miss about home when I'm at school during the summers?

Fairs.

I miss bumper cars and the Gravitron, the amazing American desire to put just about anything on a stick and serve it deep-fried, funnel cakes, cotton candy, and games that are nearly impossible to win. And you don't really want the bootleg cartoon character stuffed animal you'd win anyhow.

Is anybody else as tired of Latin as I am?

I guess it's important, but that last assignment was a bit long. And if we're supposed to be mainstreaming into society, what good is a dead language exactly? I'd rather be working on my Osage, or at least taking something practical like Spanish.

( easy conversations, there's no such thing )

( words can never make up for what you do )

( i was a dancer all along )